joy:

...the emotion of great delight or happiness caused by something exceptionally good or satisfying; keen pleasure. through the midst of this strife and worry, i feel joy. brimming full, overflowing, pouring out of my pores. vampire weekend sings it well “here comes a feeling you thought you’d forgotten”. for years i let my knack for self-pity and depression control every move and thought. i couldn’t function or smile without guilt and shame. i longed to crawl into a corner and “cry tears like diamonds” (thanks passion pit). but He came. He stooped down to my little corner, pulled me onto His lap and cried with me. that’s how I knew. no one else had dragged themselves to my level. but He knew. and now I no longer crave that tiny, dark, invisible corner. I crave His living, breathing, loving, joyful, merciful lap. I crave Him.