how can i miss someone i don't know? am i missing the idea of you? the idea that one day i'll have a boy of my own who loves, respects, cherishes me and my passions. is that so crazy of a thought? sometimes it feels that way. doubts pop into my mind begging me to believe that this dream of mine is outrageous. could it be the romantic in me arising to recreate the hundreds of happy endings i've seen? ariel, belle, jasmine and others dictated my dreams. but i don't want a prince charming. i couldn't live with a perfect boy. instead i want a real, loving, giving, joyful boy. a boy driven by passion and God's will. a boy to take my hand and stick by my side in the toughest and easiest times, pushing me to love and give more and more. a boy showing me God's love, teaching me to listen, forgiving my mistakes.
i know for the time being i will remain single. i am content. God is working in my heart. He is turning my disaster into a workable piece of art. just me and God. i am blessed by my family and friends who surround me. so for now i will continue this journey without you. i am confident one day we will find each other but i am in no rush.
boy, just take this time to meet God for yourself. do not worry about me wherever you are and i will not worry about you. i will be here praying for you, and from time to time i will silently miss you.
love.
your girl.
i adore this crisp little collection of letters. so much heart beneath them. so much reality. so much hannah.
ReplyDeletekeep missing girl, if it is God's will i believe he is out there. i believe soul mates exist.
and ill be your soul until he comes:]